Robi fretted, she hadn't seen Owyn for weeks now, but more worrying was that she hadn't heard from him either. She'd written several times and still nothing. He wasn't at home and the chill in the rooms told her he hadn't been back in some time and she'd seen neither hide nor hair of him Dalaran.
Although she'd never seen Owyn so angry as he had been that night, she somehow couldn't believe he was still angry over her sitting with Cal in The Lion's Pride. She thought about the trampled Rose she'd found that night she'd kissed Cal in a fit of indignation at Owyns anger.
A sinking feeling in her stomach that made her feel physically sick, it couldn't have been, surely not...she dismissed the idea, but the feeling remained, wouldn't go and somewhere somehow she knew....
It was still more weeks before she laid eyes on Owyn again, he walked into Goldshire and looked at her, almost as if he was expecting to see her with Cal. Truth was that after she'd kissed him that night, they'd gone back to their old friendship, goading and teasing, true their flirting was sometimes a little outrageous but it had stayed that way, friends, it was as if she knew what had happened that night was just the moment, it had happened and nothing could be done to change it, so effectively that was that. Chapter closed.
"We should talk" Owyn said
Robi nodded and followed him out to the lakeside.
"I saw what happened.." he started
Robi nodded.
"I'm sorry Owyn..I was angry with you when you said you didn't believe me...and I couldn't find you..." she tried to explain "But thats all it was I kissed him..nothing else...."
She looked him in the eyes but couldn't hold his gaze, the hurt deep within them cut her to the core.
He nodded
"I believe you..." he said smiling wanly. "I kinda believed you then too, but I was just too mad to let myself"
"That hurt when you said that" she responded.
"But I can't forget it Robi, I see it over and over again...you kissed him because you were angry...I understand that, but also Robi you kissed him again because you wanted to..."
"No..."
"I saw it and I know what I saw..."
"It was a kiss in anger Owyn..thats all..."
She felt herself getting defensive and battled with herself to quell it.
"Youre sorry you hurt me that I know, youre sorry you betrayed me, but deep down you cant say youre sorry it happened..." he said
Robi shook her head.
"Ive said it how it was Owyn..I wish I hadn't done it, I'd give anything for it not to have happened at all" she looked at him. "What are we going to do?"
"I don't know Robi, I can't forget what I saw, the betrayal cuts through me, I just don't know" he replied sounding drained
"It was hardly betrayal Owyn, it was a kiss, nothing more..youre reading too much into it, Ive said Im sorry I can't do anymore, I made a mistake...but you were the catalyst when you betrayed me with your disbelief"
He looked sharply at her.
"I betrayed you?"
And so it went, every argument and counter argument saw both of them become more exasperated and indignant with each other. The "crime" each had perpetrated in the eyes of the other growing in stature with every sentence.
"Well maybe I wouldn't have been with Cal in the first place if you spent more time at home, instead of running into battle all the time or running through old castles looking for remnants of Kael'whatsisface....or stuff like that.." she snapped
"Perhaps if you had made more of an effort to join me in these ventures,instead of sitting around Dalaran being the martyr, you may not have felt the need to run to Cal..."
"Your friends are odd, and they don't like me anyway, why would I want to help them?"
"You don't let them like you...."
"Owyn you were getting as boring as they are..." she huffed and their discussion closed.
They met a few times afterwards, both trying to heal the rift and save their marriage.
But too much had been said, too many wounds opened and both too proud to be the one to say I was wrong forgive me. To proud and stubborn to see what they were doing to each other.
Owyn stuck to his wounded pride and betrayal stance, convinced she had kissed Cal "because she wanted to"
Robi saying she had said all she could to convince him and after all it had been "just a kiss".
Neither prepared to give an inch either way.
"I should have done this sooner..."Owyn said holding her lightly by the shoulder. His lips touched hers tenderly as he pressed his wedding ring into her hand. "Goodbye Robi"
She stood holding his ring and looked up at him as he turned to mount his horse.
Run after him you fool, tell him sorry, beg him to forgive you..her thoughts screamed but her pride stayed her voice. Instead she forced a shrug and let the ring drop to the ground.
"yeah sure bye Dudley..." she said lightly "See you around maybe"
She watched him him ride away, the certain he was gone she ran to the lake and silently broke her heart.
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